i'm thankful for my contemporary ritual of starting to draft an issue of these notes by compiling the "Previously on this day" section, how I never really know what's going to come up when I enter the date in the app I built to return them to me, how when reading them to summarize them (a task an AI could do but i want to do) so often I see overlaps (there are reports in today) and recurrences ()
Previously on this day:
- 2016 (from c) (the message of passover, the idea that all people on earth must have the ability to live the way they wish to; the largest seder i've ever attended, the periods of reflection the holidays bring me)
- 2016 (2) (from fsa) (the first time i saw him, how the world paused a bit; how he walks with a slightly bowed head; professed his love for me and fucking sang a song (!!!) we had composed together)
- 2017 (getting to write these notes; that though in one sense that can feel like an obligation sometimes in another it feels like a gift i get to give myself, something to unwrap anew every day; the handmaiden).
- 2018 (iām thankful that though it rained heavily all the time the first two days of our trip, which could not help but exacerbate the various unhappinesses both individual and relational in our vacation party, it is not going to rain today.)
- 2018 (2) (our first full day in Seoul; forces presentness, even though often that presentness means being present in discomfort; perfect strawberries bought from a stall on the street)
- 2019 (our trip to california, that miso was happy to see us when we picked her up from the boarder this morning after couples therapy, that i finally got the new glasses i spent too much money on while walking with my friends in new orleans in january)
- 2021 (recording and expressing the feeling of having ideas, which is my favorite feeling; personal happiness as encoded in four things; the most recent issue of edith zimmerman's thread about lint rolling)